I Feel Cheated

For two weeks I have been glued to my television watching a Novela (Soap Opera). It is a Turkish love story by the name of Lovebird. The men are handsome and the women beautiful. I got to know all of the characters and some I liked, some I hated, but the story kept my interest. The 72nd episode ended with the handsome doctor waiting for his love at the train station. When I flipped to get episode 73 it wasn't there.

I got on my computer and asked when season two would begin. The message I got was: Due to low amount of viewers, there would be no second season!  "No," I cried, "I need to know what happens to all those people I got to know so well." I continued my search and found out the Novela was written from a three book story called The Autobiography of a Turkish Girl translated by Sir Wyndliam Deedes. Searching further, I found the books on the Internet and read the ending to see if the two lovers ended up together. There was no satisfaction because the ending seemed to have no connection with what I had been watching. I needed closure!

Next step was to call the Jefferson County Library and they were able to find  a copy and will get it to me in the near future. The Internet let me know that there were three books but the librarian said she could only find one book. I then looked the book up on Amazon and they have copies ranging from eight dollars to $56 but I do not know if it was the story I wanted. I can not believe that I may never know what happened to those characters that became like family!

Slowly, I am getting over my disappointment. Here it is, the day after, and my thoughts keep returning to the story.  I even watched the last episode again to see if there was a clue as to how the story really ends. I could put my own ending or how I wish the story would end, yet I want to know what actually happened.  The feeling is like losing many loved ones at the same time. I suppose I will have to go through the mourning steps; denial, anger, depression and finally acceptance!

"Soap operas have the same

hypnotic power as witnessing

clothes turning in a washing

machine -- if you don't look

away quickly, you'll be 

watching until the end."

 Steward Stafford

Addendum to my blog:  After waiting over three weeks for a copy of the book, I called the library and inquired if the book had been ordered. "Colorado did not have a book, but we found one in Missouri and when it comes in we will let you know."  On April 6, 2029, I received a notice that the book was in. I picked up the book and it is faded, held together with pink string, has yellowed pages and it looks as if is falling apart. Don't judge a book by its cover, I thought, maybe now I will find out what happened to all those characters I left behind in the seventy-two episodes!

I will be done

 with what happens to everyone

as I take a look

in this tattered book.

E. Moscoso

 After reading about 160 pages of the Autobiography of a Turkish Girl I finally got closure. The two lovers never connected again but the ending shows he received her diary. He would read that she  emphatically said she hated him and never wanted to see him again. She also wrote she would never love again because he was her only love.

I will return the tattered book to the library now that I know what happened to the two beautiful  people with their special love! I no longer have to wonder what happened when he was left waiting for her at the train station!