Forgetting Is An Awful Thing

Every time I forget something, be it my car in a parking lot, an item in the house, the time of an appointment or why I entered a room, it makes me nervous for fear that I might be getting some form of dementia. But last night I had a dream about preparing for a celebration in a foreign country. Relatives came from out of town, and I was chosen to hold on to envelopes with money. "We don't need the envelopes now so put them in a safe place." A few days later I was asked for the envelopes. I could not remember where I had put them. I searched in my usual places, wondered if St. Anthony worked in dreams, yet I could not find the envelopes. Imagine how frustrating that would be as I moved, lifted, opened drawers, looked under and over things, and no envelopes could be found. 

Then I woke up. I should have been relieved that it was a dream, and it didn't matter, but the anxious feeling persisted. Even after twenty minutes had passed, I still wondered where I had put those envelopes. My dream had many parts to it with relatives arguing, decorating, flowers, balloons, and searching. But the looking and trying to remember where I had put them took priority in my dream.

Forgetting is a curious matter in real time but more frustrating in a dream. Once I wake up there is no going back to the same dream for the conclusion. Forgetting is an awful thing, especially in a dream!

I looked up the definition of losing something and found a few reasons for the dream. 1) Kick a habit like smoking, over-eating, low self-esteem, or not understanding those around me. 2) Another item listed was when searching for something it can be the first step in transformation. Neither seemed to apply to me but sometimes I wonder about those around me!

The following night I had another dream of looking for a lost key. I don't remember much about it other than it was at St. Rose Residence. (A place where I lived when I moved to Denver in 1956). Why am I dreaming looking for things? The Internet explained that looking for keys signifies fear of losing control, or my position and status in life. I will see what tonight's dream will be and maybe I can figure out why I am dreaming looking for things and I am happy to know it has nothing to do with forgetting or my memory!

"You are never too old

to set another goal

or to dream another dream."

C.S. Lewis